Burlap Soul

The wind is blowing fiercely outside and I can hear fireworks going off all over the city. We're thoroughly enjoying the Twilight Zone Marathon on Sci-Fi and the dogs are snoring peacefully in the glow of the Christmas tree. We've been home from Michigan for only a few hours and most of that time was spent napping on the couch. For the past five years, we've gone out and done something on New Year's Eve. Sometimes it was fun, sometimes it just felt like too much pressure and didn't live up to our expectations. This year, I wanted to do absolutely nothing. I didn't want to watch a single ball drop or have a single sip of champagne or wear a single uncomfortable shoe. I wanted to relax on the couch with my new husband, my dogs and my cats and simply wake up to 2008 with absolutely no fanfare or drama whatsoever. I wanted simply to rest.

I got my wish.

Eight years ago tonight, we had our first date that turned into our first weekend that turned into something I never imagined would be so lovely. It's 2008, we're home, we're happy and we're finally married. It's the best beginning to a new year I could ever think of.

All the best to you and yours in the year ahead.

A conversation with Rasee this morning via my newly re-discovered AIM:

CrowLuvsServo : I'm okay. It's nice not having to work and being able to wake up on your own clock.
capricornras : I bet. And you're still working on the house.
capricornras : And raising a puppy.
CrowLuvsServo : Yes, I am a full time house fixer upper and puppy owner.
CrowLuvsServo : He just ate poop by the way.
capricornras : Hee. And cat-mommy.
capricornras : And ew.
capricornras : Bad Bogey.
CrowLuvsServo : Very Bad Bogey. He got half a bag full of carrots and was sent outside.
CrowLuvsServo : My glamorous life.
capricornras : I know!
capricornras : Fur. And staples. And poop.
CrowLuvsServo : With Bogey, it seems to be more a stream of steady destruction.
CrowLuvsServo : And the barking, my god the barking!
capricornras : He's just expressing his many opinions!
capricornras : Sharing.
capricornras : Connecting. Etc.
CrowLuvsServo : He has more opinions than a political talk show host, I think.
capricornras : He is your pup. :-)

It was time for something a little new. So what do you think? I'm sure it looks all jacked up in IE, but I don't know how to fix that and frankly, I don't care. You should be using Firefox anyway. ;-)

Have I mentioned just how much I love sledgehammers? Because I do. And boots. Boots are awesome.

Guys, I honestly have no idea why the comments are always so fucked up. I was trying to fix them and now suddenly they're all just GONE. Not only that, but you can't even leave a comment at all. I can't stand this anymore. All I ever do is plug in a new banner photo with a new background, but something always goes wrong and fucks up and I'm just so tired of it. I love to re-design my site, but my god this is nuts. I love to write here, but I'm so just damned tired of having to give my fucking life over the computer for days on end for nothing. I can't figure this shit out, I leave endless queries and questions on the MT forums and no one EVER responds to me. I'm so tired of this shit. I'm so absolutely fucking tired of it.

I'm sure people think I'm being dramatic, but you should see how much of my week has been spent just trying to get my damned blog to work. That's time I could be working on my house or spending with my husband and the animals. But no, I spend it here getting nowhere and getting no answers from anyone anywhere. Not a single person answers questions on the forums? Then what the hell do we have them for? It just really pisses me off. I like my domain name, I want to keep it, but I can't keep doing this shit to myself every time I just want to change a banner photo or some colors. It becomes a DAYS LONG process that eventually puts me into tears. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I hate this version of MT, I hate having to pay people to install the software for me because I can't figure it out for myself, I hate that the forums talk to me like I am a fucking coding genius when I have stated again and again that I am not, I hate that I have no idea how to backup 4 YEARS of my life and just switch over to something easier. I don't want to take down my blog, but this is bullshit. I just want to write and I want to have my own domain name. I want to create my own banner photos and express myself. Why must that be so damned difficult? Seriously, what is the damned point of blogging software that doesn't work for you whenever you want to blog? I don't like to get this angry, but I just don't see the damned point anymore. I've lost time with my husband, time on my house, half my weekend and too much sleep because I changed a banner photo. Seriously, at this point, I just want to take the whole damned thing down and say fuck it.

You may see some serious changes here for a while. I'm considering just taking everything down and starting over, even if I have to hire someone to help me. MT is useless as far support goes and I'm beyond ready to try something else. I'm just not sure where exactly you store 4 years of archives so that it doesn't take up all the room on your hosted account.

In the meantime, while I need to do some serious writing, it won't be here. I'll keep you updated as to where I end up. (Hopefully, it's right back here but with some new clothes.) If you'd like to say hello, just email me or find me on AIM (crowluvsservo). Kisses and happy new year!

This blog may be undergoing a little facelift soon. In the meantime, you can find me writing over here. Plus, if you visit me over there, you can like leave comments without technical problems and stuff. I swear! What a concept, I know! ;-)

Hi All. This place is a bit broken right now and I wanted to simplify things anyway. So, until further notice, update your links and visit me here instead. Thanks and enjoy.